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5.8.11

School has My Knees Shaking


Like many of your small children, I too start school in 2 weeks. I am extremely excited but also, I have never been so terrified of the first day of school in my life. What about having a kid turned me into such a huge wuss? First tubing done a river causes me to curse in front of my innocent Young Woman, and now a clock tower and tests have me knees quivering. I WENT THROUGH NATURAL CHILD BIRTH!!!!! I CAN HANDLE COLLEGE!!! ... Right?
Maybe it is because I'll be leaving Lus on a consistent basis, or because last time I went to school I failed miserably (too much playing), or maybe I'm nervous I'll feel old as I'm surrounded with a classroom of 18 year olds and those girls thighs will be the size of my arm. Or maybe, and more likely, I am a Mother, a Wife, and a Homemaker and already I'm feeling pulled in too many directions and I'm nervous that one other thing might make me break. Just maybe that it is.
I know there are tons of woman with children and families that go to school, turn in papers, take tests and still make it home to clean up, make dinner, run off to meetings, and read bedtime stories. I KNOW that. I KNOW I can be one of those woman. I went through natural child birth, I can do anything, I can do this, and it will be awesome. Right? Right.
Wish me luck, cross your fingers, send some good organizations vibes my way, I'm going to need it. This semester (I can start measuring in semesters now. that is neat) is going to get crazy.

9 comments:

  1. YOU CAN DO IT! I haven't had to balance all those things, so I might be speaking out of school but I think a routine/schedule will be key to getting it all done. I'm a big believer in to-do lists. Sometimes I even put things on there I've already done just so I can see some checks on there :) Hey, it's motivating!

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  2. My Dad has been going back to school and it is a totally new experience for him. He appreciates it a lot more and he feels a lot more motivated. You'll do great!

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  3. I am going to be in this exact same position come fall 2012- so I am rooting for you all the way! You are right- we went through natural childbirth- we can do it! Those 18 year olds don't have anything on us :)

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  4. School is awesome. You're going to be so great at it. The stakes are higher now than they were before--you're leaving a kid behind for this--so you'll work hard at everything you do because you have to to make it worthwhile. I'm so excited for you. Where are you going? What are you studying? I'm slightly jealous, and I HATED school the entire 18 years I was in it. Good luck!!

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  5. Awesome! You'll love it. I didn't realize that you had Lus without any drugs... I bow to you.

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  6. I'm totally starting grad school in 10 days. And I'm REALLY nervous. We can do it!!! Marissa

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  7. Making up old crappy grades is what I am studying. : ) I don't know yet. I want to do everything. Lack of focus, like always, is my problem.

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  8. You're gonna do great!!!!! I get to do the same thing (minus the child) so we can push through it all together! You should for sure take some photography classes or at least minor in it cuz you would totally rock it ;)

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